by Zach Kaiser on Mon Sep 27, 2010 2:30 am
Eld turned and gave her a wry smile. "I know it sounds crazy, but...if you were there..." He reconstructed the event in his head for the millionth time, but this time rather than to mope about it he hoped to give a clear picture to Etsu.
"It was like this: Akizetsumei bent down at one of the graves, which was marked by a pair of fans--that's another thing, none of the graves had headstones or anything, they were marked by strange stuff. Weapons, or random items or something. Anyway, she bent down, and Remmy--that's another story in itself--shouted for her to stop. She touched them, and then a few seconds later she fainted."
He paused to let that sink in. "So...maybe he just thought it was disrespectful. But, what are the chances that Akizetsumei would faint from exhaustion right then, when she wasn't moving or exerting herself at all? And I...well, I don't like to disagree with my parents, but she was fine until then. She wasn't flagging at all."
Setting the book down for a moment, he got up and began to pace back and forth nearby. "But I think it's much more likely that he knew something would happen if she touched those fans. And like I said, when I told all this Toushikyo, he seemed relieved, as though he knew Akizetsumei would be alright. So...I think he knew what happened, too. Once is coincidence, but twice?" He shook his head. If he had a tobacco pipe he'd look just like a detective from a mystery novel.
"And then there's the way Akizetsumei reacted to me when she woke up. Even if you have a nightmare, and it involved someone you knew doing something horrible, it wouldn't normally affect you that much, right? You might be a little startled if they were nearby when you woke up, but we all can tell the difference between dream and reality. But she..."
He trailed off. This wasn't the kind of thing he wanted to think about, but if Etsu was to understand why he thought something strange was going on he needed to say it. "She was afraid of me. Terrified. She recoiled from me, was convinced I'd done something terrible. So...I don't think she was dreaming."
"I think...I think touching those fans made her...see something. I don't know what, or why, but I don't think it was a dream. Maybe it wasn't real, but it wasn't just a dream, either. But of the two people who I think know what happened, I can't find one of them and the other...well...you saw how much Toushikyo communicates. I don't think I could get a straight answer from him if I tried." This was just an excuse, really. The real reason he hadn't talked to Toushikyo was that he didn't want to risk seeing Akizetsumei...risk her still treating him like some kind of monster. That hurt more than he ever thought it could.
Finally he stopped pacing and turned back to Etsu. "Does any of this make sense, or do I just sound completely crazy?" he asked with a self-conscious smile. If nothing else, he clearly knew how it must sound, so his grip on reality hadn't broken entirely yet.