The annoying scream of the alarm clock would awake the tortured soul whose face was flat upon the cool surface of the desk. Nimble fingers found the bothersome device and with a slap, silenced it. There was never really a point to the alarm, other then it made me feel more normal, more like everyone else.
I lifted my head and tossed it back, stretching as far as I could in my chair. My body popped and cracked like I was eighty, when in reality, I was only well into my twenties. Without tossing a glance, I found my smokes and lighter and swiftly took advantage. It was the way I started every morning, and I wasn’t even sure if I enjoyed it anymore, so much as it was now my routine.
Looking around my second-hand-stuff filled apartment, I thought long and hard about the things I needed to get done today. Nothing, and nothing. That should be easy enough.
You see, my last book brought in enough cash that I’m not really pressed for time to get another out, though there is more then one already ready to hit the presses. My stories don’t come from my mind, so much as from what I see. And what I see, you probably wouldn’t believe anyway.
My ashes missed the ashtray as I knocked them away, and with a quick movement, I snatched up the hair tie beside it and made easy work of pulling my long black locks into a sloppy ponytail, and then it was off to the kitchen, and she was already there.
Her work worn hands were holding tightly to the front of the sink, and her sobs were quiet, almost a whisper. An apron was always tied securely behind her back, and her long straw colored hair, so neatly in a bun. The first time I approached her, I was almost horrified that someone was in my home, until that is, I felt it.
That feeling that was as old as I could remember. The feeling that I was not the only kind of being that existed. A feeling I wish I could describe better, but my words fail me each and every time I try.
She turned to me, and I gasped. I don’t gasp any more. She’s here every morning it seems. The right side of her face, or what used to be her face, is mutilated. After our first meeting, I curiously took myself to the library and looked through some old new paper clippings.
Clara Lyn Edward, age forty-six was found dead in her home today. My home now, or at least part of it. It would seem after a night of drinking, her controlling husband came home and found dinner unfit and beat her with a meat cleaver. I assume this is the reason she lingers in my kitchen, now knowing it used to also be hers.
I always feel compelled to help them, but they don’t always want help. I do what I can, what they will let me, which doesn’t always leave me feeling fulfilled. As if it’s all about me anyway.
I grabbed my normal cup of coffee and headed back to the desk where my paper and pencil lay. Strangely enough, it’s how I feel the most comfortable writing, so much so, that my computer is in a different room of my apartment. Perhaps all of these reasons are why I feel so alone, though always surrounded by beings. It’s just the dead ones seem to understand me better.